This Week On Etsy...

So far I have only made one purchase on Etsy.com this week. Which is some kind of record for me. I have been lusting after a MeiTai baby carrying wrap for a few months now, since it seems so much easier to tie than that damn Moby wrap my sister gave me.  I found a woman that makes them in London, so I ordered one since I love supporting all things handmade. Besides, I get to open a box from ENGLAND!!! I don't know why I am so excited, but I am.

I also totally want a little mother and daughter apron set for when Delilah and I bake all kinds of stuff together. But J so helpfully pointed out that she can't even sit up on her own yet, and buying $50 aprons may be a little to premature.

Additionally, I ordered a little something just for me. I have started container gardening, and have quite the collection of great plants and things on my deck now. But what I really needed was a Zombie Garden Gnome.

 

Some Wounds Never Really Heal...

Sometimes I feel like I have come so far in regards to my infertility and the loss of my five pregnancies. I mean, I won the big prize didn’t I? I brought home a healthy, happy, wonderful daughter three months ago.


But sometimes, all of it comes crashing down again. I remember my five babies that I will never meet. I wonder what they may have looked like. Would they have been blond and blue eyed like Delilah? Would they have been up all night, or hated the bath tub? What would their smiles have looked like? And then I feel guilty because if even one of those children had survived then I wouldn’t have Delilah and having her is the most amazing, magical thing I have ever done in my whole life.

I still miss my other babies though and I miss the innocence of not knowing the pain of losing your child before you ever get to meet them.

This Week on Etsy...

I have an Etsy.com addiction. I really can't help myself, it is some kind of compulsion. I am fairly sure I am keeping all of the independent crafters in the world in business with my purchases. I find such great things on there, begging to be sent to me with a hand-written address and a cute little business card. Recent purchases include the Feisty Zombie shirt, which doesn't quite fit right because of my giant, lactating titties, but I am entertained by it none the less.



I have also been feeding my little vampire fangirl with the Vampire's Bite necklace. Though I would never admit it in polite conversation, I have a thing for vampires. Vampire movies, I have seen them. Vampire Clothes, I have worn them. Small dancing vampires that sing songs about sucking blood, I have one in my car. I have read Dracula 7 times and I love every second of it. Of course, if someone asks, that is the only vampire book I ever read. I make sure not to mention the Blackdagger Brotherhood or the Midnight Breed series that I am addicted to, and I really don't mention that I have read the Twilight series..... Twice (damn you Stephanie Meyer and your strangely addicting, yet poorly plotted and written book series!!!).